Alright so. I guess it's time to make an update, because I haven't in a really long time. Who knows who even reads this business anymore, but whatever.
I'm actually doing pretty okay these days. I still have a hard time sometimes. My brother Conrad died in December, so that has been an incredibly difficult experience. I'm also still trying to cope with my mom's death last June. I went to a bereavement group last semester a couple times...but nobody really showed up to the group so it was just me, Matt, and some woman named Tanya who had a beard. Hah. Plus she was there because her dog died so I felt uncomfortable.
These days, I'm doing better. I don't cry as much and I feel more in-control of my emotions.
Oh a much lighter note, I was accepted and admitted to CSU Chico. Matt was too, incidentally! So we're going to be moving up there together in the summer--maybe June or July. I am soo SCARED. I'm also incredibly excited because I just feel this ache to be out of my family's house, for independence's sake. Well, for co-dependence's sake heh. I'm going to major in Liberal Studies. At least, that's what I've declared. I may change it if something else catches my attention.
Matt and I have been together for a little over two and a half years. It's bizarre how much I love this guy. I never in my life thought that I would meet somebody this young, and feel such an intense and powerful connection. I feel like we are on the same page about nearly everything, and that is so comforting. He has been so amazing, helping me cope with the tragedies that 2007 dealt. I just feel so lucky. I don't know what I did to deserve him, but I'm going to hang on to him.
Uhh. I ordered seasons one through three of Lost last Monday (yeah like 58585858 days ago) and hopefully that will arrive tomorrow. I want to have a Lost marathon. I got a new TV from my parents for my birthday, so I look forward to watching a nice clear picture. For Christmas, Matt got me Six Feet Under, the entire series. I loooove it. I'm re-watching it, and it's even better the second time around. Such a beautiful and powerful show.
Well I guess that's about it. Various other shit's going on but I can't think of it right now. I have to go potty :(.
Oh and if you haven't already, watch Once. You'll feel really good.